Vibes

The view from our room. We're back to life, back to reality - although, life seemed pretty damn real whilst away on the retreat this weekend.  I managed to record my thoughts in this video of the first Ayahuasca ceremony, yet after the second and third I didn't feel it was right.  Here's what happened on the first night: I'm going to sum up what happened on the second night - no doubt there will be things missing but whatever flows through my clumsily typing fingers right now is obvs what I'm 'meant' to share.  The second night was just as daunting as the first going into it. We were told that this brew would be stronger than the initial dose the night before and that the experience would be different. And it was. Something I'd learnt about Ayahuasca is that it is very helpful to go into the session with an 'intention' which could be a question you'd like the answer for or an enlightening inspiration you'd like t...

We're at the airport ready to board the flight, the feelings are indescribable right now but at least the accumulated fear of the unknown at our retreat is top trumping my newly found fear of flying so there's definitely a plus!  I'd like to send a massive love to everyone in my life right now, each one of you has influenced my life in an amazing way, I'm incredibly lucky to have some very special people surrounding me at this stage and for that I'm forever grateful. If for any reason I don't come back, know that I love you! Let's go to the Alps! The comfort zone just got snipered. Xx

This week has been filled with emotions, positive, negative and some I can't even name.  Tomorrow morning we begin our journey abroad for 4 days and 3 nights, in an unknown location with strangers to go through a lifechanging experience. Nothing too serious then.  See you on the other side x

It's here! The week of our journey to the unknown. My feelings are pretty jumpy right now, between completely calm and utterly anxious. I know by next Monday I will have a different view on life, I guess the anxiety is stemming from the unknown, the fact that I'll be stripped of some habits which have become comfortable over the last 28 years. After doing some searching (let's face it my ego has the need to be somewhat prepared for this experience) I came across this blog, The Secret Shade  where the writer describes his life  after  his Ayahuasca experience. "Somehow drinking ayahuasca seems to cultivate in the user a greater affinity with nature and a deeper appreciation of our biological identity. As a result we feel both more ‘human’, and more embedded in nature. We become more aware that we are an expression of nature and evolution. The sense of separation from our natural origins dissolves and the natural world is re-experienced as home, sacred, of great...

Last week I done something I've been wanting to do for a few years but up until this point had never felt psychologically ready enough for, I booked myself onto a retreat to experience 3 sessions of Ayahuasca for next month. I've been researching DMT (dimethyltryptamine) for the last 5-6 years and was introduced to Ayahuasca more recently. Ayahuasca is a brew made by Shamans which induces a psychadelic, visionary state, the active ingredient being DMT, and is used by many people for individual reasons. For therapy, relief, cures, answers and more.  The common factor of the experience seems to be 're-living' the traumatic occurrences of your lifetime and gathering a new found understanding of them, whilst enlightening you within this 3-5 hr journey and therefore 'freeing' your self and mind from any issues and/or lasting effects these experiences have left with you. Let's call those 'limitations'. Oh, and you also puke. A lot. The bel...